The Blog Whore That I Am

Hmmm...so today I did something I never thought I'd do. Well, that I think about and then never act on. I talked to a girl--two in fact.

Lately, I have joined an aerobics class...it was so good that I enrolled in three--back to back. So basically it is a three hour course PLUS my 6 miler...it is only for the first three days of the week.

...and of course the ladies in the class are nice. No, no I did not join the class for that reason...although there are a lot of nice women in there...

Most of them have boyfriends anyways. I really and this will sound funny to some--I am not very comfortable with women...in that sometimes I say some of the dumbest things. I usually have this social awkardness with them--and figured that getting in shape and dealing with my fear of women would be a twofer. (Two birds with one stone deal--get it?)

AND I am meeting intresting people along the way...I never realized I had quite a bit to say. Or that I could actually be a bit of a social animal.

I have internal struggles that I deal with much like anyone else. We will not even go into asking for help--although it usually takes me an hour to work my way up to it.

So I go this store everyday to get my daily addiction of Diet Coke/hotdog/chips and a Crispy Creme donut--is this a choice meal if your= are training?

I have been talking to her for a while in small tidbits...and I think the last time she wanted me to ask her out...I CAME so close to asking her out tonight...and I bonked (what is this running?)side note: I'm so glad that Lance Armstrong admitted his defeat--he needed his ego popped (referring to his first and last marathon. If you are a running purist (you need to read Runner's World November 2006 issue to see why I said that)...

"I think I bit off more than I could chew, I thought the marathon would be easier," he said. "(My shins) started to hurt in the second half, especially the right one. I could barely walk up here, because the calves are completely knotted up.
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So will he be back?

"Now's not the time to ask that question. The answer now is no, I'll never be back. But I reserve the right to change my mind," he said. "I don't know how these guys do it." Lance Armstong (USA Today.com)

He is NO TERRY FOX.

On with the show: I think tomorrow I am going to ask her out...there are a lot of things that I have done on my to do list. I am tired of being scared of rejection (laugh all you want it is my fear.) ...and may be she MIGHT say no or she MIGHT say yes. All I know is that I want to try...and live.