Rambling Man

I can never really be sure if what I say is profound...I'd have to say nonsensical at best. I guess I could really,really try to be intellectual sounding--but that would just sound cheap.

So the other day my friend wanted me to hang out with her and her gals...a.k.a set me up. Oh, dear.

I'm all for meeting women--it is just the whole idea of being squashed like a bug (me being behind and all--referring to where i should be at this point in my life, eh, but define late for me)...other times being criticized for going out with a younger lady.

I like who I like.

It is just--the whole idea of being set up is like--well the attitude behind it with certain "friends" make it seem like there is something wrong with me.

I even had to fight..not that I had to, but I am not gay.

Although--I must admit it is funny the way some people react to me---think of the last Lethal Weapon movie the scene with Chris Rock and Danny Glover. I know I shouldn't mess with people like that...and yet sometimes it is fun.

I make the best of my situation.

I always have when it comes to life--
I don't like the way things turned out...it just is--

If there was anything in this world more than anything that I would want at present. It would have to be out of the Valley and on with my life.

I dream of the day I am in China--surrounded by mountains, Great Wall...man--I love the people that are there (not that I don't love the people here)...it so ancient in the country side...and then I do have a leaning towards the Asian persuasion. Sorry.

I like to rhyme when I see the opportunity.

At the moment though...I'm really trying to establish myself (within) as a person and do things I never would do...

today I went to a funeral only to find out that two more cousins have had cancer--the same type my brother had--it is a reality on my dad's side of the family.

Both cousins are expected to go this week...the other one today.

Life in its entirety is what I seek to enjoy. I want to squeeze all the life that I can...which is why I do not like to sleep sometimes. I want all of it for as long as God permits me.

As Jim Elliot (paraphrase--see the movie The End of Spear if you are curious) once said," I am immortal till I die."

I think i will stop here.