So I saw Rock Balboa the other night (a piece of info--it is NOT Rocky 6--for legal reason Stallone had to go w/ a stand alone movie...an unofficial add on to Rocky).
I can not avoid the pun--but it rocked.
It is what is...a guy movie. It is about coming full circle...there was a scene that made me cry. I SWEAR that the advice he gave his son is what I tell people about life.
Even when it beats the crap out of you...you get up and move forward.
Bam! You dad puts you in the hospital.
Pow! Your placed in foster care homes for awhile.
When getting the hell kicked out of you is not enough--you get it at school.
When all you ever learn is to hate rejection...then fear it.
When it seems as if every women is out to steal your feelings made out of meat within your chest...wishing they would steal the one thing you want to lose. Your innocence...and yet--you've lost that along time ago...and your left wondering how do you lose innocence?
When it is still with you?
When it feels like love is so unattainable Jesus chooses to forgive you.
When you lose two brothers'--grandfather kills self--
You develop an addiction...like anorexia and cocaine..you steal to survive your habit. Several arrests later...probation--all of this before 20...
a few more rounds later--cancer, dad's three strokes--then your 27 going on 95.
What happened to 17?
When friends abandon you and your by yourself for 3 years...your find yourself in San Diego, New Orleans, L.A--you never really think about feeling sorry for yourself. There are times when it gets the best of you much like anybody else--but you get up and go another round.
Life--is never really meant to be anything. I do not like the way things have turned out, but it just is...you deal with it and dance in the ring. Some of it brought on by life--the rest of it I did not need any help with...I can get into trouble just nicely thank you very much.
It always puzzles me when it comes to relationships how some people NEED a person to be there for them. They are well..needy--they can not endure anything by themselves...this is not to say I am any better or stronger because I am single. Believe you me--I would SO give anything to cry on some body's shoulder...and I believe one day I am going to experience love and physical intimacy.
I have no desire to go to Boy's town. (brothels in Mexico--if you are wondering)
You have to understand some of the guy pals in my life are "When men should act like men" type.
It just made me a bit stronger--to a certain degree--detached would be a better way to describe it...apathetic.
It is why I love to write...it lets me remember my emotions and what I have endured and how I far I can keep going.
It may make people uncomfortable to make light of bad situations--or laugh, if you are not able to then...his life can either be a long jog or a short stroll.
Seize the fish.
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